Think and Think

I didn't care where this is heading, I hope this is the kind of bond that comes natural... From what I know, you do care... Then why? I am in such a problem... A endless loop, I don't have the guts to promise anything, just because that I am incapable still... after ns... yes.. you will see, wait for me... our bond shall never end..

Why?

Why do I care so much for her? I don't know how to explain, don't know how to describe. All I know now is that there is no more chance for me, no more...

I don't mind, I take it as an experience but I hope for one thing, I hope we will be best friends forever.....

..............Dreaming

The Way I Feel

:- Give in to Me

She Always Takes It With A Heart Of Stone
'Cause All She Does Is Throw It Back To Me
I've Spent A Lifetime
Looking For Someone
Don't Try To Understand Me
Just Simply Do The
Things I Say
You Always Knew Just How To Make Me Cry
And Never Did I Ask You Questions Why
It Seems You Get Your Kicks From Hurting Me
Don't Try To Understand Me
Because Your Words Just Aren't Enough

You And Your Friends
Were Laughing At Me In Town
But It's Okay
And It's Okay
You Wont Be Laughing Girl
When I'm Not Around
I'll Be Okay
And I'll, I'll Not Find
Gotta, The Peace Of Mind No

Don't Try To Tell Me
Because Your Words
Just Aren't Enough



:- Dangerous

But her inner spirit and words
Were as sharp as
A two-edged sword
But I loved it
'Cause it's dangerous

The girl was persuasive
The girl I could not trust
The girl was bad
The girl was dangerous
Deep in the darkness of
Passion's insanity
I felt taken by lust's
Strange inhumanity



:- The way you make me feel

I Like The Feelin' You're
Givin' Me
Just Hold Me Baby And I'm
In Ecstasy

Never Felt So In Love Before
Just Promise Baby, You'll
Love Me Forevermore
I Swear I'm Keepin' You
Satisfied
'Cause You're The One For Me


:- Heartbreaker

Should have known she was a heartbreaker
That girl I can't take her

She plays a game with such an innocent face
I didn't know heartbreaking was her case
Her actions confess and put me through the test
I was surprised that I was caught inside
Now she's thinking that I will never know
And she'll keep playing until I let her go
But I hope in time that she will finally realize
I'm onto her game and she'll get played the same

I never thought that I would stop dreamin' about you
Stop being without you
But everyone told me so, to stop caring about you
And start being without you
But I'll find a way to go and start doin' without you
And stop talkin' about you
And what will she say?
She will say I was the man that got away



For You~

BBQ

I had a family BBQ with my cousins, memorable.. was in panic state before the bbq, because nobody contacted me the information, when will start, who going, was also a bit nervous.

I reached the location at around 4, was held at my dad's work place ( It's pretty big )
We had fun, chatted, had more fun, bbq was awesome. after bbq, we head on to my dad's KTV room, he built it. It was awesome, it works just like a modern KTV room haha. Proud of my dad.. =>, well didn't sing much, no songs for me to sing =S

I am longing for that present of yours, I really hope that you won't forget to give me, I will feel very upset =(...
I wonder what you are doing now

You smile... Your presence... along with others, will stay with me for a life-time..

Understanding

Understanding the situation:

I would like to thanks my friends for recent suggestions... I had think alot recently. I gave myself a self-discipline, had been busy... my supervisor also had given me new tasks, miss sally's expectation is growing.

I finally told her my troubles, my effort, my perserverence, the answer is going to be out, I wonder what will happen, this is so exciting! I doubt anyone can feel my anxiousness now, there had never ever been a better school semester than this, I will remember it a lifetime!

I learnt alot during this final year project, those that cannot be easily learnt from books or novels. Those who truely understand will see the true sight of what other's see, those who don't will come to conclusion at a rediculously early stage.
I am a person who wants peace and peace to all... I learnt to understand others, care for their feelings, best of all, don't be emotional, take life easier...

I had been rushing myself so much in this final year project, time to treat myself better... Better me, better mindset, awesome me... awesome...
I will get back to my warcraft map development once final year project is done. I am also finishing a request my friend had about web designing... I will give it my best, it will be my first industrial project that I am working alone on, wish me luck.

To the rest of my friends, even those who are not close, thank you for you suggestions, Life had never been any happier than recent, I feel a surge of bless running through me, the imbal knight had been borned! ha..

*Act cool for the lose*

For You

Emotional Speech for myself

For you,
I done many things for you,
even betraying myself to do as you wish,
I had given,
I had recieved memories,
I assume it takes more than this,
to show you who I really am,
my faith had been running low,
my trust for you shall soon vanish,
what is unfair is that I betrayed myself,
just for you,
along with the memories,
I shall remember for life.

What about the bond,
we had?
broken,
as days pass, bonds shatter,
recreates,
and shatter again,
on going,
I am negative now,
for the outcome that would be,
soon revealed.

I once believed,
that hope is something meaningful,
now,
hope is meaningless,
hope brings emotion,
hope brings chaos,
and hope and trust,
can never work together,
It brings more chaos.

You,
you are very stubborn,
you are bad,
you are greedy,
you are sensitive,
you are lazy,
how much,
I wana tell you that,
you must change,
you are,
friendly.

my image of you,
shatter day by day,
forms back and shatter,
my mind tells me that,
I am stupid,
my heart tells me that,
you are the one,
my mind tells me that,
I am going to die,
my heart tells me that,
it is worth it,
my mind rejects,
your image,
is vanishing.

My suggestion,
love is not a toy,
trust is not,
easy.

I am tired,
of holding it,
I just wana,
let go,
and move on with life,
let go,
and be myself again,
let go,
and live in peace,
because,
I am giving up on the game,
giving up on you.

Time will tell

Mask

Don't wear a mask while in conversation, show what you thik, care about others

don't be a fake, be truthful, I've learnt a lot from you, you should learn more from yourself..